Funny blog

I read another book this week called "Reconstructing Natalie" by Laura Jensen Walker. Yes, she's the same one who wrote "Miss Invisible". I'm going to read all her books, they are just so great! Anyways, this one is about a woman's struggle and triumph over breast cancer. It's got humor, sadness, hurt, happiness, romance, etc. Some of the things she wrote made me laugh out loud! Especially the first sentence. "I'm obsessed with breasts." I mean wow! What an opening sentence! I wasn't sure about the book after that, I mean it could go anywhere from there... But, anyways, it was a great read. I hope that if I ever have breast cancer, I'm as brave as the main character was!

Not so invisible

So, I guess with some people I can open right up. I'm working at our church this week in the nursery for our Christmas Dinner Theater (our Christmas program), and I was working with someone I knew only in passing because she used to be the leader for my daughter's hallway when she was 1. Anywho, I opened right up and we talked about all kinds of stuff, my past, my present, my family, everything. It was so nice. Maybe its more of, if I feel like you'll receive the information and really care about what I have to say, then I open up. I guess that's good though, because I don't want to waste my time and breath if you really could care less. Not that I can't be nice to someone who doesn't want to hear it all, but sometimes you really don't need to hear it to care about someone for just who they are now. You don't always need to know what happened to them to make them who they are today! Ok, so that's my revelation for now. I'm going to bed, I'm exhausted!

Invisible update

So, I said I wasn't going to be invisible, but I did it again last night. I was at a party where I only knew a couple people, but instead of talking to everyone and getting to know more people. I kept to myself. I'm not sure why I do this so much. I usually only talk to people who talk to me first, that way I know they really want to know me better. Makes me wonder if other people feel the same way, and I'm just making it hard on them...

"Miss Invisible"

I just finished reading this great book "Miss Invisible" by Laura Jensen Walker. If you've ever felt invisible by how you appear to others or how you think you appear to others, then you definitely need to pick up this book. In it, she starts a blog to complain about how people treat her because she is a "big woman". By the end of the book, she is a stronger woman and happy with who God made her to be. She also realizes that people can feel invisible and not be "big".

I sometimes feel that way. I sometimes let people treat me like I'm invisible or that my feelings don't really matter. Not anymore. I know God loves me for who I am, even if not many people know the true me. I feel like I've changed so much in the last year that most people don't know me anymore, even if they were really close to me at some point in my life. They may know a lot about me, but they don't KNOW me. Hopefully, this blog will help you get to know me a little more and get to know who God made me to be.

I'm not very outgoing, but I'm also not very shy. I don't usually talk to people at first; I sit back and observe, its not that I'm a snob or anything, I just like to get to know people before I decide how much of my guard I'm going to let down. I've been hurt in the past by the people who were supposed to protect and love me and so now I protect myself. I'm trying to let some of that go now. I've forgiven them, but that doesn't mean they didn't hurt me and that I don't hurt anymore. Anywho, that's another topic for another blog post. :)

I tend to ramble, when I get started its hard for me to stop. I love to laugh and enjoy time with friends and my children. I love to play games (board games, not mind games). I like some video games, but not many. I prefer some one-on-one games like Sorry, Monopoly, Trouble, Clue, and games of those sorts. I love to play Bunco! I started playing about a year ago and I'm hooked! I'm part of a group of women that get together once a month to play! It's so much fun!

Some other things I like: I love pedicures, snow, rain, sunshine, swimming, going to the park on a great spring or fall day, talking on the phone, being a servant for the Lord, reading, scrapbooking, playing on my computer, traveling (hopefully one day, I'll go somewhere really exciting other than AR, SC, and TX), and having babies! Yes, I said having babies! I love being pregnant and giving birth to a wonderful little miracle! Raising them is difficult and that has to be where most of my complaints are, but then I remember that chose to bless ME with these wonderful little children and that usually makes my day all better.

Ok, so for now, I'm going to end this. I'm sure I could go on and on, but I do need to take care of my home and children some too. Enjoy reading future posts!